Post by mybubbles245 on Nov 22, 2006 20:25:19 GMT -5
Title: This I Know
Rating: PG13
Pairing: Spike/Buffy
Notes: Buffy's POV; Short and sweet little ficlet set in Season 6 - "As You Were"
I don't really know how things got this far. First, I told him about heaven and the next thing I know I'm sleeping with him. I couldn't tell you why I think that its so wrong for us to be together. He's more of a man than Angel ever was, with no soul to boot. I'm not really sure why I trusted him enough to go to him, or why he kept letting me. I can't tell you why I treated him so horribly, when he was there when my friends weren't. I don't know how to make it right, or even where to start. I can't say sorry, and can't use forgive me. I don't think I'll ever know how I let myself become this person whom I despise so much. And I don't know how on earth I could stand there and tell Spike that its over, that its killing me. It wasn't true, I knew it, and he knew it. This I know.
I do know, however, that he loves me. And will always love me, in life and in death. I know that Dawn will be so much happier when she finds out that he will be moving in with us soon. I know that tonight was the first time I let Spike make love to me, and I knew it. I know that I would have told Spike how I felt had Riley not come bursting through that door. I know that when I walked away from Spike after telling him it was over, that it was not only breaking his heart, but mine as well. And I know when he came after me, running to catch up with the car Xander had picked me up in, I know that he knew it wasn't over. It will never be over. This I know.
I can't begin to describe the look on Xander's face as Spike yanked me out of the still moving car to kiss me. I don't know why, after telling him it was over, I wrapped my arms around his neck to kiss him back. I couldn't explain how I felt when he told me that he'd never give up, that he would be with me till the end even if I would never be with him. I don't know where the tears came from as he recalled a promise he made to never leave me. I didn't know that he kept his promises. I really don't know why this time, when he said I love you, was any different from the countless others. But it is just as true(if not more) now, as it was then. This I know
And I can't tell you the exact moment that I fell in love with him. All I can tell you for sure is that I do love him. And I will never stop loving him.
This I know.
~Fin
Comments please?
Rating: PG13
Pairing: Spike/Buffy
Notes: Buffy's POV; Short and sweet little ficlet set in Season 6 - "As You Were"
I don't really know how things got this far. First, I told him about heaven and the next thing I know I'm sleeping with him. I couldn't tell you why I think that its so wrong for us to be together. He's more of a man than Angel ever was, with no soul to boot. I'm not really sure why I trusted him enough to go to him, or why he kept letting me. I can't tell you why I treated him so horribly, when he was there when my friends weren't. I don't know how to make it right, or even where to start. I can't say sorry, and can't use forgive me. I don't think I'll ever know how I let myself become this person whom I despise so much. And I don't know how on earth I could stand there and tell Spike that its over, that its killing me. It wasn't true, I knew it, and he knew it. This I know.
I do know, however, that he loves me. And will always love me, in life and in death. I know that Dawn will be so much happier when she finds out that he will be moving in with us soon. I know that tonight was the first time I let Spike make love to me, and I knew it. I know that I would have told Spike how I felt had Riley not come bursting through that door. I know that when I walked away from Spike after telling him it was over, that it was not only breaking his heart, but mine as well. And I know when he came after me, running to catch up with the car Xander had picked me up in, I know that he knew it wasn't over. It will never be over. This I know.
I can't begin to describe the look on Xander's face as Spike yanked me out of the still moving car to kiss me. I don't know why, after telling him it was over, I wrapped my arms around his neck to kiss him back. I couldn't explain how I felt when he told me that he'd never give up, that he would be with me till the end even if I would never be with him. I don't know where the tears came from as he recalled a promise he made to never leave me. I didn't know that he kept his promises. I really don't know why this time, when he said I love you, was any different from the countless others. But it is just as true(if not more) now, as it was then. This I know
And I can't tell you the exact moment that I fell in love with him. All I can tell you for sure is that I do love him. And I will never stop loving him.
This I know.
~Fin
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