Post by mybubbles245 on Nov 28, 2006 7:55:35 GMT -5
Title: In The End
Rating: PG13
Pairing: None
Notes: Buffy's POV; Introspection after "Chosen"
In the end it doesn't matter, I guess. The battles we lost or won, the people who died because of it all, the loves we had and lost. None of it really matters, because in the end, none of that is there. In the end, there is nothing but that, an end. End to all the hurt, and the pain, and the suffering we have all endured. Some more than others.
I lost Angel, Riley, my mom, countless friends, and now, the man I loved. I lost them all, plus countless others that I just couldn't save. Giles and Willow say its fate, destiny, and all that rubbish. I just think they are trying to make me feel better, and it works, for a little while. After 7 years of losing people you love you start to realize a lot of things. Things that no one really wants to hear, because they will just think that you are pitying yourself. For 7 years I have sacrificed what I wanted for the "greater good" and to save the world. I am sorry but I think that after 7 years for pain I deserve some happiness. And in the end I got it. In the end, after all the fighting was over, and after the biggest source of evil was defeated I got my reward. But at what cost?
Last I heard Angel and Spike where fighting Wolfram & Hart and the Black Thorn. Supposedly world ending fight, but it never really ends the world. We stop them, and my boys did their best. I got a telegram, yesterday, from them at the Italian villa I am living in. They had major injuries, but no decapitation or wooden object in their hearts, so I do believe they will be just fine. Wesley died, and that girl Fred did too. Cordelia was dead just weeks before the fight. Again we are losing people all to help our cause. Again, in the end, all we are doing is sacrificing our lives and our loved ones lives. I once told Faith that being alone was just a price for being the slayer. For being the hero. I wasn't truly alone because the people I loved where downstairs. And they were all safe. We lost a lot of potentials in the fight, and we lost Anya. Willow sat for hours after wards with Xander, consoling him. After all she knew how he felt, she had lost Tara not even a year before. They have both moved on to better lives, away from all the death and destruction and though we still keep in touch through emails and phone calls, I can't help but feeling alone. Dawn opted not to live with me, she's a big girl now and has college to think of. Mom would be so proud. Giles and Andrew actually hit it off and with Willow's coven connections restarted the Watcher's Council, helping all the girls the can find understand their new strength and power. Willow and Kennedy started a school connected to the new Watcher's Council and with Faith and Wood's help are opening it up to the magical and supernatural community somewhere in London. So, I can't really say that it was an end, because we are all still alive. And I am still going out at nights when I am bored and have nothing to do hunting graveyards and finding myself right back in the arms of the man I love. The Immortal was right when he said that no one stands a chance with me now. Spike has spoiled me for any other man.
In the end, I think, it was all worth it. In the end, after the dust settled and we were able to go about our lives, in the end it doesn't matter. The battles, the war, and heartbreak. None of it mattered. In the end, you pick up the pieces of all you had lost, and the bittersweet tale of it all is finally brought to an end. In the end, I found peace. In the end.
~Fin
Rating: PG13
Pairing: None
Notes: Buffy's POV; Introspection after "Chosen"
In the end it doesn't matter, I guess. The battles we lost or won, the people who died because of it all, the loves we had and lost. None of it really matters, because in the end, none of that is there. In the end, there is nothing but that, an end. End to all the hurt, and the pain, and the suffering we have all endured. Some more than others.
I lost Angel, Riley, my mom, countless friends, and now, the man I loved. I lost them all, plus countless others that I just couldn't save. Giles and Willow say its fate, destiny, and all that rubbish. I just think they are trying to make me feel better, and it works, for a little while. After 7 years of losing people you love you start to realize a lot of things. Things that no one really wants to hear, because they will just think that you are pitying yourself. For 7 years I have sacrificed what I wanted for the "greater good" and to save the world. I am sorry but I think that after 7 years for pain I deserve some happiness. And in the end I got it. In the end, after all the fighting was over, and after the biggest source of evil was defeated I got my reward. But at what cost?
Last I heard Angel and Spike where fighting Wolfram & Hart and the Black Thorn. Supposedly world ending fight, but it never really ends the world. We stop them, and my boys did their best. I got a telegram, yesterday, from them at the Italian villa I am living in. They had major injuries, but no decapitation or wooden object in their hearts, so I do believe they will be just fine. Wesley died, and that girl Fred did too. Cordelia was dead just weeks before the fight. Again we are losing people all to help our cause. Again, in the end, all we are doing is sacrificing our lives and our loved ones lives. I once told Faith that being alone was just a price for being the slayer. For being the hero. I wasn't truly alone because the people I loved where downstairs. And they were all safe. We lost a lot of potentials in the fight, and we lost Anya. Willow sat for hours after wards with Xander, consoling him. After all she knew how he felt, she had lost Tara not even a year before. They have both moved on to better lives, away from all the death and destruction and though we still keep in touch through emails and phone calls, I can't help but feeling alone. Dawn opted not to live with me, she's a big girl now and has college to think of. Mom would be so proud. Giles and Andrew actually hit it off and with Willow's coven connections restarted the Watcher's Council, helping all the girls the can find understand their new strength and power. Willow and Kennedy started a school connected to the new Watcher's Council and with Faith and Wood's help are opening it up to the magical and supernatural community somewhere in London. So, I can't really say that it was an end, because we are all still alive. And I am still going out at nights when I am bored and have nothing to do hunting graveyards and finding myself right back in the arms of the man I love. The Immortal was right when he said that no one stands a chance with me now. Spike has spoiled me for any other man.
In the end, I think, it was all worth it. In the end, after the dust settled and we were able to go about our lives, in the end it doesn't matter. The battles, the war, and heartbreak. None of it mattered. In the end, you pick up the pieces of all you had lost, and the bittersweet tale of it all is finally brought to an end. In the end, I found peace. In the end.
~Fin